After class yesterday, one of my favorite clients was kind enough to invite me out to dinner with her family. I was talking to her husband about relationships and the challenges I had in my last one. I explained how my key take away was that it takes time and patience to learn what someone else is bringing to the table and understand you both have many years of experiences, and in many cases traumas, that will impact how you interact and what you need. David said, "That's why you don't honk." I met him with a blank stare...he lost me. "You don't honk because you never have any idea what that person is going through or what situation they may have just escaped from when you met them at that intersection." It was a lesson on empathy.
Yesterday, I was having trouble uplifting myself. A recent break up has left me a bit disoriented, and in search of some sort of comfort. While I have felt particularly fortunate in the past few weeks to have a job that brings me joy and comfort, it has also been a challenge to be the positive energy and the group leader when my heart feels heavy.
Yesterday, I learned the details of some of clients' realities, and the challenges they are currently working against. I learned that they use my classes as a source of inspiration and comfort. One client wrote me to say, "At a time when nothing is certain, I took a chance in the front. I have been counting on you silently to get me through the week every Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. Your words remind me that I am strong and i can hold on, no matter what, and i cannot thank you enough for that."
Every day I get to watch people I have learned to love and people I have never met, show up for themselves. Some of them will IMMEDIATELY open their hearts to the journey, feel supported by their surroundings, and access a deep strength and freedom. Others will come to observe, and hesitantly dip their toe in. Some will come back day after day, and others will drift in different directions. But there is a magic in this process. In this interactive performance, we have the opportunity to hold a stranger's heart in our hands and help it beat stronger. We have the privilege of knowing that our words, strength or cheers can ignite a fire in the person next to us.
So, thank you Julia and Heather for sharing your stories with me. Thank you Maxie, Kaitlyn, Cam and Laura for trusting me to guide you in your health journeys. Thank you Eryn, Ferry, Alexis and Gabby for being my Monday night squad when I need a few extra hugs and smiles to get me through. Thank you Ellen and Marci for being my family. Thank you universe for me leading me to the exact space I need to be. What a raw, inspiring, human experience. I am in love with the beautiful souls that have walked into my life, and I am in love with the fulfilling and exciting experience we create together in those dark rooms on a daily basis. I am so full.