After class yesterday, one of my favorite clients was kind enough to invite me out to dinner with her family. I was talking to her husband about relationships and the challenges I had in my last one. I explained how my key take away was that it takes time and patience to learn what someone else is bringing to the table and understand you both have years and years of experience, and in many cases trauma, that will impact how you function and what you need. David said, "That's why you don't honk." I met him with a blank stare, he lost me. "You don't honk because you never have any idea what that person is going through or what situation they may have just escaped when you met them at that intersection." It is a lesson about empathy.
Yesterday, I was having trouble uplifting myself. A recent break up has left me a bit disoriented, and in search of some sort of comfort. While I have felt particularly fortunate in the past few weeks to have a career that brings me so much joy and comfort, it's also been a challenge to BE the positive energy and the group leader when my heart feels heavy. Yesterday, I felt so inspired by the people around me. I learned the details of some of clients' realities, and what challenges they are currently working against. I learned that they use fitness, and the classes that I have the privilege of teaching as a source of inspiration and comfort. One client wrote me to say, "At a time when nothing is certain, I took a chance in the front. I have been counting on you silently to get me through the week every Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday. Your words remind me that I am strong and i can hold on, no matter what, and i cannot thank you enough for that."
Every day I get to watch people I have learned to love and people I have never met, show up for themselves. Some of them will IMMEDIATELY open their hearts to the journey, feel supported and loved, and access a deep strength and freedom. Others will come to observe, and hesitantly dip their toe in. Some will come back day after day, and others will drift in different directions. But there is a magic in this process. In this interactive performance, we have the opportunity to hold a stranger's heart in our hands and help it beat stronger. We have the privilege of knowing that our words or our strength or our cheers can ignite a fire in the person next to us. What a raw, inspiring, human experience. I am in love with my job, and I am SO in love with the beautiful souls that have walked into my life because of it. I am so full.
Thank you Julia and Heather for sharing your stories with me. Thank you Maxie, Kaitlyn, Cam and Laura for my OG clients and believing in me to guide you in your health journeys. Thank you Eryn, Ferry, Alexis and Gabby for being my Monday night squad when I need a few extra hugs and smiles to get me through. Thank you Ellen and Marci for being my family. Thank you universe for me leading me to the exact space I need to be.